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Let's just be brutal. I am scared. The Bible says "Pure and undefiled religion before our God and Father is this: to look
after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself
unstained by the world."(James 1:27) So here we are. We feed kids. We send out letters and I write on this blog. We email friends and family. We try to connect and in the end I am scared. I am scared of failing and I am scared of being alone in this battle of feeding the hungry. We have in hand a little over 20K and that will hopefully last us through this year and then...then? Then we will be I don't know where we will be but we will have to be somewhere. I know that God has called us here and I know that I am not supposed to worry about the support to keep us here, but dang. We need backing. We have committed to stay here as long as God has called us to; where would we go? Nothing else in our entire lives makes any other sense to us, and this plea isn't an emotional one. But I am scared and honest. So if it is in His will to go back to America, we will...but in my heart of hearts - I understand His call to be that we are to be here; serving and loving and feeding these kids, these people, these orphans and widows. So the plan is to go back sometime in October to raise money and awareness and jump-start something because we don't want to loose anytime on the ground here if we run out of money...so if you are interested or if your heart is pulled towards South Africa, please email me and we can figure it out together. We can come and possibly talk or for sure send some info your way. We are just trying to figure this out...
Hey Kristi,
Don't forget that God usualy waits til the last minute to supply our needs. That used to aggravate me to death. I am more used to it now.
Should we have gotten our support letters already? I haven't gotten mine yet. I am going to see if my small group would be willing to help you, however we can. We have been talking about sponsoring somebody, somehow, but haven't done it. Hopefully, it's because God wants us to help you!
Josh 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and couragious. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."
You are doing something real for God's Kingdom. He is honored by you faith. Be excited.
Easier for me to say, I know. XO
Posted by: tawny | May 18, 2008 at 04:22 PM
Yes...yes you should have and I emailed my sister to make sure your letter went out as well as as all the other ones that were newly added. As soon as I know I will let you know. Thank you Tawny for this encouragement. For reals...I know in my heart I need to relax about this. Easier said then done.
Posted by: Kristiapplesauce | May 18, 2008 at 05:09 PM
Kristi, If I have learned one thing since this missionary calling in 1999...is that if that is where God wants you to be HE WILL BRING THE FUNDING! Not that we dont have to do our part but I believe HE will provide sister. Love ya with all my heart.
Lynn
Posted by: Lynn Carey | May 18, 2008 at 05:35 PM
"capital follows courage".
your courage is an inspiration to me (you're doing it afraid...) and i know the provision will be there.
i'm praying for creative strategies and Holy-Spirit-led ideas... and divine strategic partnerships.
we're with you.
Posted by: alece | May 18, 2008 at 05:46 PM
your honesty.
it blesses and kills me all at the same time.
Posted by: mandy | May 18, 2008 at 07:57 PM
email me...and I will try to get it to the right people, I will also pray hard for your support
Posted by: darla | May 18, 2008 at 10:27 PM
Thank you for your comment on my blog. But I am wondering, when you said I had a brain the size of a planet, is that a nice way of saying I have a big head? * grin *
Yesterday, Pete’s sermon was about his prayer for the church. One of the points was that he prayed that everyone at Crosspoint would take a step of faith by doing something that scares them. He had another point that he prayed that the members of the church would be able to experience those points when our faithfulness coincides with God’s faithfulness. After reading this post I feel you and your husband are experiencing both of these prayers.
I will keep you and your husband in my prayers. I agree with an earlier post that God is in charge and he will put you where you need to be. I understand that God’s timing can be exhilarating and extremely scary at the same time.
Take care!
Posted by: Scot Justice | May 19, 2008 at 04:25 PM
Be assured you are in our prayers and that I will be praying that God will be speaking to all of us about your need.
Posted by: Indian Lake Papa | May 19, 2008 at 04:36 PM
send some info to this stegall.
we can't do much, but we can do something!
Posted by: cathi | May 20, 2008 at 03:25 AM
Your words went to my bones. Made me think. Now I need to go pray. Your "scarred" is the only justified "scarred" I've heard in a while. To think of all the petty things we worry about in our culture when this is what should be on our minds.
Peace,
R. Kristina
www.sharingnotes.blogspot.com
PS: Found you via Whittaker Woman
Posted by: R. Kristina | May 21, 2008 at 08:06 PM