Who?

I struggle sometimes knowing where I fit in or what it is I am actually supposed to be doing with myself. I know that I am meant to be here in South Africa...serving and loving these kids, these adults - my husband and friends who are here...but sometimes I get all wrapped up in it and get frustrated and lost and confused and lost in the crazy of it.

I am (by nature) cluttered and nervous, doubtful and intense. I see things blurred and magnified. I am dramatic and loud. I get all worked up over the littlest thing. I love completely and will loose my temper over the smallest detail. I can't seem to ever find my sunglasses and my dogs still aren't trained. My husband is the best part of me and my house is never dusted. My parents still call to remind me that the weather might be bad (when we are in the States). I struggle to drive (well) but I can type really fast. The only way I ever know which direction we are headed is when the GPS is on, but now the cord is broken so lately we are constantly wondering where we are. I drink a million cups of coffee a day and I never say no to my mom's cooking.

I long to know the Holy Son of God in everything I am and even though I battle all these things, I know I am a work in progress and hopefully one of these days, I will know where my keys and watch are, the dishes won't be stacked so high, my dogs won't jump on every single person who walks through the door and my sensitive sensitivities won't overwhelm me (and everyone else) because I am (at least on that day) surrendering all of myself back to God. 

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[Kim]

Beautiful You!

[melanie-pearl]

"i love you just the waaaaaay-ay you are."

God made you you.

"You're beautiful, you're beautiful, it's true"

ps)thought about you, Charlie, tonight when Cody and i ran to get carryout at On The Border. miss u.

[Karyne]

Love you.

[Louise]

*breaths a sigh of relief* I'm so glad you're you.