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  • The thoughts and ideas expressed here are not necessarily those of Oceans Of Mercy (the mission we are with) so please don't hold them accountable for the ideas or thoughts expressed...

Colossians 1:9

  • Jami -
    Her dad (Don) was diagnosed with bladder cancer. They recently did surgery to remove all the cancer and so far it all looks clear. So please pray that the MRI, blood work, and lab tests all come back negative.
  • Mandy-
    We need financial prayer. My hubby is in the RV industy & it is in the toilet right now. We are doing what we can to stay afloat, but it looks grim. We're in the process of selling the house just to get enough $ to make it through the winter. No debt...just struggling to buy necessities. Not sure where we'll end up?
  • Paige -
    (13 months old) girl who is battling stage one neuroblastoma which is a kind of cancer. Please pray for her and her family for complete healing. UPDATE: She's at home now and she's had one round of chemo so far. She'll have another round in the next 2 weeks and then they'll take a CT Scan of the lump to see if it has shrunk. Then they'll either do surgery to remove it (preferred) or they'll give her 2 more rounds of chemo and take a look at it again. So far she seems to be doing well, with no physical side affects.
  • Brenda -
    Going for more tests this week at the hospital. She was already cleared from the results from her breast but we are still a little concerned because of our family history with cancer (Brenda is my aunt).
  • Samantha -
    Zoe, her seven year old daughter has been diagnosed with scoliosis, a heart murmur, and most recently Mitral Valve Prolapse, and Patent Ductus Ateriosus. Zoe will have to have surgery...possibly in July. Their insurance only covers 80% of the costs of treatment. Please pray for Gods provision and healing.
  • Grandma Vicker -
    Has had heart problems for forever but now her aortic valve is beginning to tighten causing her heart murmer to increase...so soon they might have to re-open her heart to give her a different valve.
  • Heidi -
    She is battling all kinds of crazy...her diagnosis being: lacunar stroke; onset diabetes/ high cholesterol/ migraines. Please pray for all of that.
  • Gabe –
    2 year old little boy is going through chemo is very weak and sick. Please continue to pray for him and his family.
  • Anne -
    Direction, wisdom and timing as she writes her book.
  • Bethlehem House -
    Lynn- the intrum house mom...Please pray for strength and wisdom as she leads the girls toward the Cross.
  • Derek and Shannon -
    Continued healing from the cancer that has been eating away at their lives. (He is in remission but the disease is still causing all sorts of drama).
  • Jackie and Chuck -
    Health and comfort as they grow old together. (She battles COPD, emphysema and array of other health issues.)
  • Mr. and Mrs. Fair -
    Wisdom for Daniel as he leads our family, wisdom for me as I follow.
  • The people of South Africa -
    Salvation, healing within their land, food in their bellies.
  • Kelsey -
    girl from youth group...Dr's can't seem to figure out what is wrong; she has been ill for over 2 years.

Wild in Africa

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    A day in South Africa. So fabulous. Come and hang out. We will take you on an adventure.

Beach Mama

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    Our fabulous day at the beach.

Cape Town

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    Our trip to the coast.

Township

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    Meet some people and see some townships....

June 29, 2008

Whew, made it.

Dude, last night sucked. I guess I am still kind of in it...since it is still dark time here. But it is 6:00 am and technically a new day, so I am going to claim victory and say that I made it through the night. I sent a prayer message to all our prayer people to pray for me...they probably think I am such a baby but I don't care. This was the first night sleeping here alone. Daniel was on a man trip with our friend Rufus, hunting. He went to get encouraged and refreshed. He sent me a text saying he got a kudu. It costs him 20 rand to send it. Not really. Me...I am a big girl, so figured me and the dogs could figure it out on our own. Nope. I was skerd. So I watched movies and committed the cardinal sin of letting the stupid dogs sleep on the bed with me. I woke up to find that I had popped a breaker because I had too many lights on. That wasn't fun since like I said it is still black outside. But it's okay, I am fine. Safe. No worries. Okay, anyways...so I got a few emails from well wishers telling me to "be safe" and that they were praying for me but my mom always gives me random information in her emails which makes me happy because the everyday life back home is what I miss the most (and today/night I needed something to take my mind off of what I was thinking about) so she was telling me about Hannah - my niece and garage saleing and wrote this: "She's looking for a Ken doll cause her Barbie needs a husband. So that's what we're looking for now." I love my family. Okay, so Daniel comes home on Monday, so please pray for one more night of being alone...I will try not to be all crazy like about it.

June 28, 2008

None of my business

You know, it really is none of my business what people do with their money. Really. It isn't. I have come to this reality since we have moved here. There is nothing I can do with how people spend or don't spend their hard earned (or given) money...but I since this is my blog I will tell you my opinion.

This week or month or year or something is Mr. Nelson Mandela's 90th birthday...I guess they are celebrating it all over the world and had a big birthday bash in London. Yay. Champaign all around. You can even go and text message him on a special phone line they set up and for 20 Rand ($2.50) and he has promised to read every single one of them. The money is said to go somewhere. It was also said on the news that the different African countries were having a contest to see which one could send the most text messages. I guess South Africa was loosing. I wonder why. People here can buy potatoes, milk and bread with 20 rand. I for one wouldn't send a "happy birthday" text message to Nelson. I am sure he has enough of those. What I would do is send a message about feeding his people. Maybe that and a suggestion on not spending the billion plus on the 2010 soccer stadiums they are building here. Because the people here don't need that crap -THEY NEED FOOD. They are freaking starving to death. Do you really think they care about his birthday? Seriously.

June 25, 2008

Giveitawaygiveitawaygiveitawaynow

So I have been reading some pretty interesting things lately on giving here and here and not just because I agree with them - do I find them interesting; but because they stretch my thinking and attitudes. Daniel and I have been stretched towards giving since we have moved here. Do we tithe regularly? Do we give when we see a need? Who do we tithe to? Do we tithe back to the churches who are fund raising, sending us money to stay here? All questions we have had to consider and find answers to. I was reading two other things that have led us to our answers. One being a quote by Jerry white (whoever that is) says when asked How can people be expected to “give back” when so much has been taken from them? Answer: "The most generous can be found among the poorest of the poor, people who experienced crisis and poverty themselves. Many have discovered that the key to finding joy lies in giving back to our communities. Many of us exert enormous effort just to survive life, but when we learn to give again, in small and big ways, we gain in strength. Giving keeps us from slipping back into a victim mentality." * Giving keeps us from slipping back into a victim mentality! True that. This one has helped me to give and to want to give and being an example to give because so many people here actually have nothing. A lot of times I feel like "Whats the use?" And feel so desperate and useless because there are so many people. They are starving...literally. So we become overwhelmed by the need here in South Africa, but in reading this and some of the other things that were written (and in prayer) has helped us get a better grasp on the reality that we can partner with the people who are like minded and with the plan God has laid out in front of us to change things. It has strengthened our Faith.

Then the other was in a book I am reading by Shane Claiborne and he goes on to say "It is so much more comfortable to depersonalize the poor so we don't feel responsible for the catastrophic human failure that results in someone sleeping on the street while people have spare bedrooms in their homes. We can volunteer in a social program or distribute excess food and clothing through organizations and never have to open up our homes, our beds, our dinner tables. When we get to heaven, we will be separated into those sheep and goats Jesus talks about in Matthew 25 based on how we cared for the least among us. I'm just not convinced that Jesus is going to say, "When I was hungry, you gave a check to the United Way and they fed me", or "When I was naked, you donated clothes to the Salvation Army and they clothed me." Jesus is not seeking distant acts of charity. He seeks concrete acts of love": you fed me....you visited me in prison...you welcomed me into your home...you clothed me." (page 158 - the irresistible revolution)

So those are some things that have helped us come to our conclusion on to where we give and how God has lead us on this journey. I don't know if we are doing "the right" thing. But for now we believe we are serving God and following Him with our finances.

P.S. We are leaving for the Transkei in a few hours...please pray for us. Our safety and return. Thanks.

June 24, 2008

Hook this

So again I visited my girls. I won't keep posting on these girls every time I go to see them...just trying to mend this relationship...so it is on the forefront of my life right now. Today it was a little wild though. I got there and 8 of them were waiting. The ones from yesterday were like "Hey Kristi" happy to see me, but then there was a girl that I have nicknamed "Hey" and she was way bitter. She was mean even towards me saying that I have abandoned them and told me that before I started coming to see them there were other people who had brought them food and visited them even took them places, promising them a life out of this life...but it never amounted to anything. That they were still "stuck" in the bushes waiting to "F" the men who come by. I just listened until her rant was over and apologized again. I told her that I was sorry for misleading her and the other girls; that I in no way had any intentions of doing such a thing. I said that I didn't promise them anything other then my friendship and that I was sorry that I wasn't a good friend up until now. But that if they can forgive me then I will be able to be a better friend in the future. She fired back that I had promised them jobs and "a way out" but I countered that the only thing I had "promised" was my friendship and time but I did say  that I would try to get them into that school so that they could find their own jobs and make a better future and I made sure they understood the difference. She was walked away whenever I started talking so I kept saying "Hey" whenever I addressed or responded back. She was funny back saying her name wasn't "Hey". I explained that the ONLY reason I have brought food today or any other day was because they looked hungry (and asked) for food. That they said they wanted to hang out so I spent time. That they wanted to get out of this life...so I am trying to find sponsors. That is what I can try to do. I do not have jobs or money or stuff to give them. But I do have the answer to why they are so broken and angry [at that point they were all just standing there looking at me]. I blurted out that I had never given myself to prostitution...but that I grew up trying to fill my life with "more" in a 3 minute explosion of frustration and sadness I laid it all on the table for "Hey" and her friends. I told them that Jesus Christ was the only way any of them are ever going to get out of "this life" and make it possible for them to get out of the bushes. I said that I can be their friend and show them where to go (The Cross)...but when all is said and done, God is the only one who can change their lives, and that is why I was here. She just looked at me. The other girls thanked me for coming and asked me to come back. I said that I would be next week. I asked if they needed me to bring anything. They said "just your friendship". I hope they were telling the truth. "Hey" didn't say anything when I left, so if you could please pray for her and the rest of the girls...that would rock.

June 23, 2008

And that is how you build relationships with hookers.

So with my heart on my sleeve and fear bubbling out, I trekked to the corner where my friends hang out. They started jumping up and down and yelling my name. Yes...after all this time, they remembered me...just like I have been remembering them. I love them. So I walked up and started apologizing immediately for my absence. They (all of them) were like "it's okay Kristi...we are just glad you are here now". Isn't just like God to bring friends like that into my life? Seriously. So I talked with them for a good 15 minutes and asked them how they have all been. There was 2 new girls there and was introduced. That of course didn't make me happy at all since they looked way too young to be there. At the end of our convo I said I would be back tomorrow since I have to be back in Motherwell for training with our CCW. I said I would swing by and see them. One of the girls said as I was leaving "I am so glad you are back and are coming back, we are so encouraged just to see you." My heart sank and at that moment I knew that I will do whatever it takes to make these relationships a priority.

Monday Prayer

If you need some healing or anything else to partner at the Cross...please leave it here.

June 21, 2008

Sex on the side

Copy of hooker

Daniel and I do a bunch of stuff. He is way more productive and busier then I am. Mainly (if you read my last post) I just kind of shuffle stuff around. I try really hard to be "that person" who gets stuff done and who is serious and responsible...but nope. I kind of suck. So mostly I am good at being friends with people. A lot of days I suck at that too. Sorry about that. But all that to say that during our time here in SA, I have managed to become friends with some hookers. I wrote about it here and here. They are on the side of the road as we go into Motherwell (the township that we run the CSP and 2 of our soup clubs). So we drive past them weekly. But I have been really neglecting those relationships lately as well because I ran into a wall. I simply promised something I couldn't deliver. We were hanging out quite frequently actually and I since they were becoming comfortable with me I asked them if they wanted to stay in this life of sex trade. Most of them said "no". Great! Woo hoo. I could help or so I thought. Since I, (Me, Myself) knew of a school that teaches different skills (restaurant, cosmetology, housekeeping) and could possibly get them out of this life... This is totally true. BUT I also said that I could [probably] get them a sponsor for it. They have been waiting this whole time. Cricket. Cricket. Cricket. Nothing. I went and talked to the lady at the school, and she said that the training is like a 6 month course for different classes they offer (around $1,000). Dang. So what do I do? I hide. Haven't gone to see them. Nope. Not once. Dang. See, I suck. So this week I am going to go talk with them again and rebuild these relationships and see what happens. I know God is bigger then my weaknesses.

Hooker 2

Purge

Negative Jesus I have been reading the Ragamuffin Gospel by Brennan Manning and there are so many good tidbits in it. One being this:

"The evil one is the great illusionist. He varnishes the truth and encourages dishonesty. ' If we say, We have no sin, we are deceiving ourselves, and the truth is not in us.' (1 John 1:8). Satan prompts us to give importance to what has no importance. He clothes trivia with glitter and seduces us away from what is real. He causes us to live in a world of delusion, unreality, and shadows." (page 130)

I have been thinking about this and convicted and done with the whole glitter and shadows thing. Why would any of us chose to live like that? Seriously. Done. So much of my life is like that though. Shinny. Shinny. I am pulled from one exciting thing to the next, only to be disappointed by the lack of luster the "next great thing" ushered into my life. Not only with stuff, but also with relationships and to be completely honest, myself. I want or desire more from myself and promise to others things that I am unable or incapable of delivering. Why do we promise such things? Probably because we are so unsatisfied with the day-to-day and bored with reality that we want more. But you see the stark reality that our hope and desires and masterpiece only lies with the Father because He is the only one who can fulfill us and until we (I) get that settled within our spirits and heart of hearts the glitter is always going to pull us into the shadows.

June 20, 2008

This is in the news everyday here...

You should probably start praying for us and for South Africa concerning Zimbabwe. Here is a news story I pulled of the Yahoo website, but as you can imagine it doesn't tell half of it. The stories we hear are much worse (sorry Mom).

Zimbabwe opposition reports 4 deaths ahead of vote

By ANGUS SHAW, Associated Press WriterThu Jun 19, 2:50 PM ET

Zimbabwe's opposition party said Thursday that it was facing escalating violence as it tries to campaign in the last days before a presidential runoff pitting its leader against longtime President Robert Mugabe.

In recent weeks, party activists have been burned alive or have turned up dead after being spirited away in trucks, the Movement for Democratic Change said. Their rallies have been banned and police have blocked campaign stops.

The violence, restrictions on opposition campaigning and the arrest of a top opposition leader have raised concerns that the June 27 elections will not be free and fair, leading some in the region to wonder whether the vote should be scrapped in favor of a power-sharing arrangement.

Opposition presidential candidate Morgan Tsvangirai's party says more than 60 of its activists have been killed in recent weeks.

Independent human rights activists have implicated police, soldiers and Mugabe party militants in the violence.

Amnesty International said Thursday that 12 bodies had been found across the country and that most of the victims showed signs of torture. The London-based rights group said the victims appeared to have been abducted by supporters of Mugabe's Zanu-PF party.

One of the worst single attacks came Wednesday, when the opposition said four activists were abducted in Chitungwiza, about 15 miles south of the capital, and assaulted with iron bars, clubs and guns, opposition spokesman Nelson Chamisa said.

The victims were forced onto trucks and taken away by militias chanting slogans of Mugabe's party, witnesses said. The bodies were found early Thursday, Chamisa said.

In a separate incident, the homes of three Chitungwiza opposition councilmen and their families were firebombed Wednesday night, but everyone escaped uninjured, Chamisa said. Attempts to reach police for confirmation of the firebombing were not immediately successful.

Doctors at the main Parirenyatwa hospital in Harare said Thursday they admitted victims injured in assaults in several townships on the outskirts of Harare in recent days.

Residents of Harare's well-to-do suburbs reported gangs of militants forcing maids and their family members to attend meetings known as a "pungwe," a colloquial term for night-long political indoctrination used by militants since the independence war that swept Mugabe to power in 1980.

Among those killed in the violence was the wife of opposition mayor-elect of Harare, said family friends, who did not want to be identified for fear of repercussions.

Mugabe has denied being responsible for the violence — but also threatened to return the country to war if he does not win the runoff.

South African President Thabo Mbeki held talks with Tsvangirai and Mugabe in Zimbabwe on Wednesday, but canceled a news conference in South Africa at the last moment Thursday "due to unforeseen circumstances."

South African media reported Mbeki, who has steadfastly refused to publicly rebuke Mugabe, was trying to persuade the two men to call off the runoff and form a government of national unity.

The idea has been raised before, but the sticking point appears to be that Tsvangirai refuses to share power with Mugabe, while Mugabe insists on leading any coalition government. The opposition claims Tsvangirai won outright, but according to official results, he came first but not with the 50 percent plus one vote needed to avoid a runoff.

One Western diplomat based in the region said Tsvangirai remains unwilling to join a national unity government that fails to reflect the result of the March first round or in which Mugabe's party dictates the terms.

Tsvangirai has repeatedly said he would invite moderate and reform-minded members of Mugabe's party to join his government in an attempt to encourage reconciliation.

The diplomat, who spoke on condition of anonymity because of the sensitivity of the situation, said that in the aftermath of a contested election win, Mugabe's party is likely to eventually jettison Mugabe and seek the endorsement of neighboring governments by offering roles to the opposition and vowing to carry out economic reforms.

Jerry Simpson, a Human Rights Watch researcher, told reporters in Johannesburg, South Africa, that if a government of unity was formed, it should not include anyone responsible for the current violence, and called on South Africa to end its "quiet diplomacy" approach to Zimbabwe.

At the United Nations, U.S. Secretary of State Condoleezza Rice cited "great international concern" Thursday that Zimbabwe is incapable of holding a free and fair presidential election runoff under Mugabe's regime, and urged the U.N. Security Council to intervene.

"I don't see anything that President Mugabe has done that has been helpful to Zimbabwean people, so maybe it's time for international pressure," she said. Rice was leading a U.S. push to put Zimbabwe's election on the council's agenda this month, which could require a vote if enough members oppose it.

Also Thursday, the Zimbabwean opposition party's No. 2 official, Tendai Biti, was brought back to court for a hearing a week after he was arrested. Police accused him of treason and publishing false statements among other offenses.

"It's all part of harassment," Tsvangirai told reporters during a break, saying time spent in court was time away from campaigning.

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June 19, 2008

Praise

Jules had requested prayer for her thyroid a couple of weeks ago and recently went to the doctor to make sure it wasn't cancerous. We are happy to announce that she is cancer free. Thanks for praying and note that I have now taken her (and several people actually) off of the side bar because those prayers were answered. If you have any Yay God moments, feel free to share.